Elaine Albertson's Blog

Mon 21 Apr 2025 20:00 ...through Sat 26 Apr 23:00 (See the end) The incredible events of the past week are driving my ME-infused memories of certain times that still...in this case, 40 years later...are triggered in ways that are at once threatening, confusing, and angering while, at the same time, these triggered memories serve to calm my sense of self-guilt. This episode happened in Stockton, San Joaquin County, in northern California. It was early summer in (I think) 1983. I had been living the “real life test” (RLT) for my gender change, and had just recently received the court order changing my name, and DMV was directed to mark me as female on the DL, with the note of “transitional” as I had not yet had surgery. That’s another episode, though. I had been recruited by the ED of a nonprofit that ran the singles and family shelters, as well as landing a contract to write an MIS, implement, and manage the Federal Shelter Plus Care & Supportive Hou...

  Sat 19 Apr 2025 14:00 Where to start? (Obviously…) at the beginning. We (I, in particular) don’t have that much time left. Events are clearly, and effectively, bypassing any effective intervention via slamming the media with propaganda “coverage” so as to confuse and overwhelm...thereby distracting from the real issue. It’s being done (intentionally) to cover for other, even worse, actions that can’t stand public scrutiny. Anyway...a dear friend here said, “If you don’t try the one thing that makes you happy, you can’t complain about depression!” Keeping in mind the comment was meant in the strongest supportive manner, but some folks lose that in the level of sarcasm...so go frakking write, girl. Until I can no more beat the keyboard into submission, I’m committing to myself, the Creator I serve and love, and whomever cares to hear it...I’ll attempt to call attention to particular issues around which we’re being gaslit. I’...

Wed 9 Apr 2025 1800 hrs – Finding it incredibly difficult to focus on what piddly stuff I need to get done (paperwork, etc...good thing I don’t have to protect a job). Heard today that a neighbor/friend whom I’d helped consistently for some years (the one who also helped me a great deal when I had surgery), a person who is famous for losing things, lost her cell phone. It would have been between KVMH clinic and her house, as I gave her the rides. It was no surprise to me at the time; I’ve seen her lose her SSA debit card, her EBT card, her (newer) credit union debit card...yada, yada, yada. Thing is, she’s now told people that I took her phone when I dropped her back at her house. And, “the other thing” is...I own(ed) the phone. She had her own line on MY account because she couldn’t get a number with any major carrier; I talked mine into letting her have a number, and I’d pay for a new phone (at ~$35/mo toward a total cost of $600...it was a good ...

Sun 6 Apr 2025 Sitting here at 1700 on a Sunday, almost finished wading through the day’s flood of what most folks consider “bad news.” There is also my reaching a reckoning on my own life, who I am, and what I should/need to be doing to remain healthy, and to continue to fulfill my primary ethical canons. Those are elements of oaths I willingly took to serve in the military (eg., protect the Constitution, etc.); to accept a position as a deputy sheriff (after the military); and to serve the God I profess to know and love (a legit, but non-traditional, ordainment by a district coordinator for the UFMCC denomination, in the 80s). 1940 hrs and still sitting here...but at least paying a bit of attention to a Dark Winds episode. Not bad...not bad at all. Mon 7 Apr 2025 1200 Yup...still in front of the keyboard, but did take some time to try to sleep last night. Had a tremendously healing, and empowering, talk with three women (they’re a family, living on an ...